I am so tired. So tired that I have to say it out loud. Maybe to justify all the lying around and deep sighs but maybe also to describe and recognize the intensity of the feeling. I really am so fucking tired. I skip the morning hike with Dad and Bonnie. Unheard of. I move slowly through the day and don't feel annoyed with Bello on our walk as he stops to pee and then stops to pee again. And then again and again. I drive without music or news and stay in the slow lane. I take a nap at 7, see above. And its ok. I don't totally understand it but its still ok.