I got what I wanted. Time has slowed. I feel calm. I feel still. I trust that I am safe. I am safely bound for a wonderful life. This is what I am doing, I don't need to worry if you are doing the same. I don't need to wait to see if you will stay. I am staying. I am committing to this place, to a communal lifestyle, to Future Farm, to ceramics, to group parenting, to teaching, to loving with all that I have. You don't have to. But I hope you will. I hope to see you between the garden beds or in the orchard. I hope to take my dinner into the yard and sit beside you on the grass.  And our children will tumble from my arms to yours.