After law school I started working for a bicycle messenger company in Santa Cruz. I had never been a physical person and this new vocation was shockingly satisfying. Equally satisfying were the activists, hippies, and nerds that rode bikes and made up my new community. And located in the middle of this life of light and promise and importance, was Josh. No hesitation, no worries, I stepped boldly and decisively in that direction. I want to remember that feeling and trust that when it is right, my attraction toward it will be mindless. That new experience, whether it is a house or a partner or anything in between, will be so overwhelmingly right that these worrisome days will become simple, fond memories. Oh, those first few winters in Portland! Oh, I was so dramatic!