This day has taken its' toll on me. My back has been bothering me and I feel sensitive from the nagging pull of pain. And then there was this morning's conversation. Adam and I were still in bed and I was on the phone with my former partner, Josh. He had called to tell me he was moving back into our old house. With his girlfriend. What a surreal moment. One of those moments where life is drastically black and white. Because sometimes I still let myself think of Josh's house as home. Suddenly and starkly, that was utterly not true. And what was true was the light coming in the windows and filling my delicate room in Portland. What was true was Adam's warmth next to me. I am here. I am no longer there.