Oh my girls. I miss you. I began a conversation with a beautiful woman in my local coop the other day. She had moved here from San Francisco a year before and I asked if she missed the life she left behind. And she said Yes! that she and her husband experience that heart-wrenching reality all the time but that she still does not regret having left. We cannot have it all. To chose one is to let go of another. Sigh and love your life.

It feels really good to be here in Portland and I have felt a positive shift in my being since making the decision to stay. Still, all it takes is thinking of one of the zillion wonderful aspects of Santa Cruz to break my heart.